When Grayson was born he was supposed to have received an Apnea monitor(for SIDS just in case he has it). Nobody ever brought us one. I talked to the pediatrician about it and he said he'd take care of it. Then recently I found out I was supposed to call my insurance company to find out what companies they cover. I talked to a insurance representative on Tuesday. The man acted like had no clue about the issue. He came across some companies and numbers for me. As soon as I got off the phone with him I called the doctors office to give the nurse the info.
Wednesday morning I got several phone calls from the nurse. The good news is we should be getting the monitor soon. Then later I found out in order to get the monitor I had to be certified in infant CPR. It would have been nice if I was told that before Grayson was born. I spent rest of the day searching online for places that offer infant CPR. I finally found one that isn't too far and wasn't full. The class is tonight 6pm-9:30pm and costed $45. That means I will be away from my son for 4 1/2 hours (that includes the time it will take to get there and back). I have no choice but to leave him with his grandparents until Nathan gets home. The idea of leaving him breaks my heart. I keep telling myself that this is all for him. I pray I don't break down when I leave. In order to get prepared for me being gone for several hours, I'm trying to pump enough milk to sustain him. I pray I get enough.
Next Friday is Nathan's work Christmas party. He wants me to go so bad. I want to go but I didn't won't to leave Grayson. I had planned on taking him with me, but his boss insinuated it wasn't a good idea. Nathan still wants me to go. I'm going to see how tonight goes before I make my decision about going. If I do go then he will be staying with his Uncle Franklin(that is if he isn't working) and Aunt Korey. They don't live far from Nathan's work (where the party will be held). If I go then I plan on going in late and leaving early. I'd actually be away from him less time then I would be tonight. I'll have to see how things go. This whole leaving my son thing isn't going to be a regular habit. I always want him to be near. Its one thing if he's in another room but to be miles away from me. I need strength.
Back to the monitor. Once I receive my certification tonight I will call the doctors office in the morning and they will contact the company. Then someone is going to bring it out to my house and show me how it works. I have to give them a copy of my certification. Lets just pray I never have to use CPR on Grayson and that he never has SIDS.